Write Something

…or really the lack thereof

Published on April 13, 2008 By RoyLevosh In Just Hanging Out

I would rather take my chances out there on the ocean than stay here and die.

-Tom Hanks as Chuck Nolan in Castaway

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I wasn’t really designed for this New Life I’ve been trying to live.

I mean, I was actually created for the purpose of living in lazy excess, ya dig? Like smoking and drinking and eating too much and partying and sleeping in.

…And so far I’ve done a fairly good job at it too.

But… this?

Hey, when it comes to the gettin’ physical, I ain’t exactly no Kenyan! At five feet seven inches I could sue the city for building the sidewalk to close to my ass. And my lily white Irish skin turns lobster red out in the sun and I peel like a molting snake afterward to become…lily white again!

But still…

So one day I read an article about this up and comin’ new guy named Ryan Hall who is blowin’ ‘em away in the marathon these days –doin’ pretty good for a white bread American kid in a field dominated by very well designed-for-the-purpose Kenyans. And so to cut to the chase in this article I went on to read where he says his running is his way of honoring God.

Wow.

His running is his way of honoring God?

Heh, if that’s the case then I’m doing a poor job of honoring anything with my penguin waddling along -let alone honoring God The Almighty.

You know –being all ill designed for it and all.

But then…

Why do I have this need to feel like I gotta absolutely kick ass in EVERYTHING I do in life (whether it be running or simply to sit down and Write Something)? Over the years I’ve observed that that little particular egocentric trait of mine has grounded me many times before I even got off to a good start in lots of endeavors.

Yeah.

So now I see I don’t have to be the best -Hell’s bells, I don’t even have to be in the top one billion really.

And so, maybe just being the below average ill-designed me will have to do. It’s really not so bad now that I’ve opened up my eyes and have come to terms with it. The thing is, is to put all that egocentric junk aside that’s always held me back and to just go on out there and live.

I guess it’s my way of honoring God, you know.

Comments

RoyLevosh

on Apr 13, 2008

Tova7

on Apr 13, 2008

Yeah I know.

As for not being the best at everything. Might not be great for the ego, but there are more of us here than there..so you have some great company, and relationships, and at the end of life it ain't about first place...its about all the runners you met along the way.

(Can't meet too many if they're all behind ya.)

Or at least I like to think so.

uDigItTheMost

on Apr 13, 2008

I guess it’s my way of honoring God, you know.

Exactly.

When I'm in a race or contest against anybody I have races within races or contests within contests. For example, if I was in a long distance race my goal would be to better my personal best time. But I also would have a mini race with the closest person ahead of me and as soon as I passed them it would be a win in my head. Then I will have a new mini race with the next person ahead of me and so on.

I know it sounds weird but winning races within races against other people or fears or whatever is a great thing for a person.

Congrats on winning your mini races, Roy.

dynamaso

on Apr 13, 2008

I'm not even slightly competitive. I never have been. I think it disappointed my father a little because even playing sports, I was more interested in having fun than winning. These days, anything I do, I know I'm doing for the betterment of myself, so I'm always going to be a winner.

psychx

on Apr 13, 2008

Hah, sue the city for the sidewalk. In this country who knows lol. I liked your casual soliloquy on your own design. I see going out there and deciding to live as the beauty of design. For it is your choice and your will.

RoyLevosh

on Apr 14, 2008

Tova & UDig:

but there are more of us here than there..so you have some great company, and relationships, and at the end of life it ain't about first place...its about all the runners you met along the way.

Wise words indeed when a little wisdom is sorely needed. Thanks for bein' here!

These days, anything I do, I know I'm doing for the betterment of myself, so I'm always going to be a winner.

Exactly Maso. In on way our another we'll still be a winner.

Hah, sue the city for the sidewalk. In this country who knows lol.

No shit. I hope I didn't give some nimrod an idea.

Zoologist03

on Apr 14, 2008

to just go on out there and live. I guess it’s my way of honoring God, you know.

Couldn't have said that better myself.

~Zoo

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